Tuesday, September 7, 2010

You do your job; Let me do mine!

We want each of you to show this same diligence to the very end, in order to make your hope sure. We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised. Hebrews 6:11-12

I felt awful. The weight I’d put back on disgusted me, as did my lack of energy and the achiness in my body. I knew it resulted more from unhealthy habits than aging. I felt restless but never motivated to do anything. Worrying about something consumed most of my time. Would Peter stay stable this fall or develop the medical complications we’d seen the last three years during autumn? How would Peter handle a new principal at school and teachers we didn’t know? Could I stay tolerant when dealing with Peter today? Would my husband take time to notice my struggles? I felt drained emotionally, physically and spiritually.

I picked up my Bible, battling to focus amidst the questions and grumbles in my head. Should I search for a special scripture to pick me up today or just keep reading in Hebrews, my current study? Where would God meet me? I opted to stick to my routine and read the next chapter in Hebrews, chapter 6. I got to the above verses, 11 & 12, when I felt like God gave me a swift kick in the pants! "We want each of you to show this same diligence to the very end, in order to make your hope sure. We do not want you to become lazy, but to imitate those who through faith and patience inherit what has been promised." The words diligent, lazy, faith and patience jumped out at me. My hope was anything but sure. I stopped to meditate on the verses and asked God to clarify what he wanted me to see.

You are spending all of your time worrying about my job and not doing your own, he explained. It is my job to take care of the future. I will deal with Peter’s health, the teachers, your husband. You need to take care of your own job. You feel lousy because you neglect the things you can do to take care of yourself. You’ve not been in the word lately, you’re not exercising, not eating right, not keeping the healthy habits you know to do. You are being lazy about what you can do, and trying to deal with what you can’t.

Instantly convicted, I confessed my attempts to take on his role. I purposed, as the verses said, to walk in faith towards the situations ahead and patiently wait on what God would do in each. I also committed to a daily checklist of things I knew to do to care for myself and properly handle the stress my life contained. Devotions, Exercise, Eating healthy, Drinking Water, Getting enough sleep, Taking my vitamins--those things I could control and do.

How about you? Do you try to perform jobs only God can handle? Are you diligent to do those things within your control to care for yourself? Stress, trials, grief and pain cause ailments in every area, physically, emotionally and spiritually. But if we do our job, and let God do his, we will experience stability even in the tough times. Let’s purpose to be diligent and walk in faith and patience so our hope will be sure.

1 comment:

  1. Hi Juli -

    You just reminded me to drink my water! You are so right - it is easy to forget to take care of ourselves. I do know though, the days that I don't walk, drink my water, eat or sleep well, are definitely the days I have the hardest time overcoming my sadness. Just the thought of being overwhelmed by despair gets me out of bed for my walk in the morning. My day is infinitely better once I've walked. And then that's when I do my thinking.

    Anyway, thanks for the great post and great reminder!

    Carol

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